By: Grace McCready
Friends, I have a confession to make: I am a fraud.
I know you might be under the impression that because I write for Wholehearted Quiet Time, I always have a wholehearted quiet time. I hate to disappoint you, but that’s just not true. In fact, my quiet times are often very halfhearted.
I dread my quiet time.
I shorten it.
I rush through it.
I read my Bible but don’t pray.
I pray but don’t read my Bible.
I read God’s words but don’t meditate on them.
I pray for myself but not for others.
I confess something but not everything.
I stare at the clock across the room but not at the gospel right in front of me.
I listen for my phone to chirp but not for God to speak.
I believe the lies that the devil says to grieve me but not the truths that the Lord says to grow me.
Now that you have a sneak peek of what my quiet time looks like, what does your quiet time look like? Perhaps you can relate to some of the things I shared about mine. Perhaps your quiet time feels like utter drudgery or simply a task on your to-do list or a way to escape from your kids for 10 minutes.
But do you come to Him anyway?
Satan would love for you to believe that because you don’t feel a certain way as your approach the Lord, then you might as well not approach Him at all.
That is a huge lie, friends. I understand that having a daily quiet time where you are fully enthusiastic beforehand, energized during, and enlightened after is basically impossible. That is simply an unrealistic standard. Being a Christian doesn’t make your humanness disappear.
Here’s a significant question to ask yourself: Do you come to God regularly, despite how you feel?
Do you carry your heavy burdens to Him? Do you confess that you are very weak and admit that He alone is strong? Do you share your deepest hurts and your greatest anxieties with Him?
Do you tell Him why it’s hard to approach Him? Because you have a huge exam next week and you’re stressed? Because your child was throwing up late into the night and you’re exhausted? Because you’re sitting in a dark apartment all by yourself and you’re lonely? Because you’re in the process of job hunting and you’re discouraged? Because you desperately want to be a “good” Christian and you’re already weary from trying?
Yes, God does want your whole heart. That’s what Wholehearted Quiet Time is all about! But when only half your heart wants to be with Him, don’t let that keep you away from Him. He holds your heart and wants to transform it.
So come to Him.
“Come to Me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is comfortable, and My burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28-30 NASB)
Grace McCready is a senior in college who is studying business administration and communications. She enjoys writing, spending time with her family, and hanging out with friends. Her passion is for young women to live transparently and thrive during their single years. She blogs about the Christian life at Tizzie’s Tidbits of Truth.