By: Jordan Sparnroft
I’m a fill in the blanks person. You know, the type who can’t go to the next page of notes until ALL of the blanks are filled in. If you’re familiar with the enneagram, I’m a 9 with a VERY strong wing 1. God has made me to be a person who thrives on routine and at times not very flexible.
I love the Quiet Time Companion for all the open-ended blanks to fill in under each tab.
My first QTC played a huge role in getting me into the routine of spending time with Jesus daily. It ensured all proverbial bases were covered when it comes to incorporating scripture, prayer, and gratitude into my time with Him. I used it religiously almost every single day. Using it ‘religiously’ over time started to become a problem. As time went on, I began to realize I was starting to worship the routine and filling in those blanks as opposed to the Savior I was there to worship in the first place.
My Quiet Time became a box to check and a blank to fill in, instead of a time of worship. It became more about me and my need for routine and less about Him. Dare I say it, my QTC started to become a small idol. Let me add a disclaimer—though my motives weren’t always pure, not a single of those times with God were wasted, none of them have come back void. He is greater than our hearts motives.
Several months ago, my Quiet Time started to feel a little stale. I was growing tired of the routine and my time with Him started taking a back seat on my list of priorities. One morning, I woke up early enough to do my Quiet Time before my daughter woke up for the day. I felt Jesus prompting me to start my Quiet Time by worshipping Him. I felt Him asking me to literally be on my knees in worship and with open hands. During that time, I felt the Holy Spirit prompting me to ask for Him to lead that time, to allow Him to make the routine and guide my heart in my time with Him each day. It’s kind of like letting your spouse pick where they want to go out to eat on date night.
This has made me more flexible in my time with Him, most days my time with Him is still very structured (by His leading) because He knows how He has wired me and I tend to get more out of a structured time with Him. Other times, I feel Him leading me to lay the structure/routine aside. Sometimes that looks like me worshipping on my knees, still before Him the entire time we have together and read whatever scripture He is laying on my heart.
There are times where My QTC is open to only the Prayer Lists tab and I spend the entire time praying over the people and ministries on those lists. Other times, I spend a large majority of the time digging deep into the Bible studying a particular verse or topic. There are days where I don’t write in my QTC at all or not all the blanks are filled in (gasp!), and I’ve learned to be okay with that.
I challenge you to start your time with Jesus each day, asking Him to lead your time together. It’s okay if it looks more of the same every day. And it’s okay if it looks different each day. It doesn’t matter if all the blanks aren’t filled in, if you’re interrupted, if you only spend 10 minutes instead of 30, if you pray the entire time, or read scripture the entire time. Time spent with Him, regardless of how you spend it, is never time wasted.
“For as the rain and the snow come down from heaven and do not return there but water the earth, making it bring forth and sprout, giving seed to the sower and bread to the eater, so shall my word be that goes out from my mouth; it shall not return to me empty, but it shall accomplish that which I purpose, and shall succeed in the thing for which I sent it.”
Jordan grew up on a farm located in a small town in Virginia. She married her NY native husband 8 years ago. Before becoming a stay-at-home mom, Jordan was a professional mental health therapist. Apart from raising her 2.5 year old daughter with a complex medical diagnosis, Jordan also teaches English to kids in China online. Through numerous trials involving grief and loss she endured in her 20s, Jordan fell more in love with Jesus and realizes her need for Him everyday. Her passion for studying God’s word and knowing Him more deeply grows with each passing day.